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blessings from lobelia, hawthorn flower & rosemary.
A small v day present for you angels. between crush, limerance, love, belonging and the void, here is to holding onto our authentic heart with herbs and each other.
The delight of a crush, the mix of a kiss, the approach of a beloved - how dysregulating. I seek to be larger, deeper, more interesting - I seek to be smaller, delicate, obscure. In the vulnerability of love, plants do find their place.
We won't begin with enticing, while the heart is a flutter and missing beats. I wish for you to be all there.
Lobelia inflata (LOBELIA) - this delicate arial east coast mystery, a small diffusive that wrings all the nerves back into place. Imagine, a deer shaking off the thrill of the chase. As the body feels unnerved, the heart is abuzz, and it may lead us astray. A mistaken look, a meaning that was missed. Without the clarity of ourselves, we misread another. We are misread. The face of the beloved is entrancing, if only because we cannot fully attune. Is it love or a mystery? Lobelia wakes the heart. Opens our mammalian connection to each other. Helps us be clear with ourselves - do we invite this chase? Or is it simply a pattern that is best to break?
(3-5 drops under the tongue. More, and you may find yourself vomiting like the tragic bisexual that you are.)
Crataegus spp. flos (HAWTHORN FLOWER) - now that we have perhaps arrived, we can fully notice the tension in the chest. The demand of the heart to be seen and recognized and held and bit into may be, pathetically cute. While this may feel like the right kind of fire, it may also lead to such behaviours as "coming on too strong". It might be intense, if we are trying to dive gracefully but are instead flopping onto our bellies. Hawthorn flower, beautiful diaphoretic, opens all the small blood vessels around the heart to ease the pounding of our courage. Invites an exhale into our greeting, and allows the space to receive a no with grace, and a yes with curiosity. How nice it is, to perceive another while being perceived.
Rosmarinus officianlis (ROSEMARY) - upon entering the realms of perception, let rosemary be your guide. Heavy with triterpenes, that penetrate your blood with oxygen and cool, the heaty volatile oils awaken your senses. Have you ever noticed the precise color of their hair under this light, or been relaxed enough to graze it with your fingertips? The tension you drained from your heart now dissipates from your body. You could dance all night, or drive them to your favorite spot. You remember all the small details, ask them profound questions, recall their preferred bit. With such cool and calm in your veins, you are now on fire.
best of luck to you, reader, in your pursuit of yourself first. May you find the thrill of yourself as enticing as the embrace of another <3
xoxox
carmie
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please exercise caution with herbs and work from within your skill set and experience. this is not medical advice. contact a registered herbalist or physician with questions on safe use of herbs. tysm!
